dang it!

I left my math homework in my locker! this sucks! I just thought I would share my frustration with you all. I hate it when I forget things! Or when I know that I'm forgetting something and I cant figure out what it is until a day or so later. Do you ever feel that way?

bug

While I was doing my homework I looked at my computer to change the song I was listening too to and found a small tiny bug laying on my computer next to my mouse pad. I thought that it was dead because it was laying on its back. Since it was so small I had to get really close to it to get a better look, and it was struggling so hard to get off of its back, and constricting its body. I watched it and decided to move it to my paper, where it lays now, moving less. I find it sad, like no matter how hard it tries even if it stands up, it still cant fly away or walk away, it just falls back down, just like people. But I noticed that many people don't try to fix or save something nearly as hard ad this bug has been trying to stand, instead of flailing on its back. Why do people write themselves off so easily? If someone thinks there a screw up, or that people don't want to be there friend, why do they give up, and think that they will always be alone, and a screw up?

A blog about blogging without blogging

I had the MOST wonderful conversation in Mr. Miclette's class today. The five people in our group started off talking about the dance, then that moved some how into sex, then gay mirage, then politics. It was a very meaning full conversation, and something that would normally be blogged about, but it was even better because it was face to face and existing! The funniest thing about it was after we ended the conversation we talked about how grate it was to blog in person! Also how weird but cool it was that conversations randomly transfer from one topic to the next until your talking about something totally random and don't even know how you got on that topic.

Is it just me or is this October not starting off well for other people?

So in three days a unhappy chain of events have happened to me this October. first my aunt died, then I found out we cant go to her funeral in Denver Colorado, then my boyfriends grandma died, and then tonight my dog got hit by a car and is in the pet emergency center. I'm sorry to bee so morbid but after the past three days I'm not really looking forward to the rest of October, or at least this week. How has your week/ October been so far?

a sad song that I listed to/ watched and didnt get at first

im not sure about how to add a video, so im sorry! but if you a=want to hear the song and see the video pleas go to this site:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L1SZvhCNIY0


So my sister played this song for me called "what sarah said" by Death Cab for Cutie. I didnt really understand it untill I listened to it a few times and talked to her about it and watched the video, but the video majes it alot more emotional. Its about a guy, who loves a girl (sarah) and theyv had a discusion previously about dieing, and she says that it is tru love to watch someone die becasue everyone wants to die with someone who cares about them at their side. So when the time comes, and she goes to the intensive care unit, all he thinks about is what she said. He just sits in his chair thinking about her question; "whoes gonna watch you die?" so while everyone els is freaking out and being sad and scared about their loved ones he thinks about how he treated her, and about how much hes care for her.

Im not too sure about what the end of the video means and neither is my sister so if you figure it out could you tell me?

A commercial I saw

So I saw this commercial, and it was one of the ''Vote no on prop....". and on this commercial they were saying to vote no on same sex marriage. I didn't even know that was up for a re- vote until I saw it. They were using video clips of a speech a person was giving and they took out and played all of he parts that made it sound like the government was forcing us to be okay with same sex marriage. I disagree I think it shouldn't be up to everyone Else in the U.S. to choose what a select amount of people can or cant do. If two people of the same sex want to be married, I believe they should be able to. 

Sorry! I couldn't figure out how to add it off of youtube, but if you want to see it the link is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u-pSye9W7FY

death

Death never seems real until it hits you. My aunt Deb was a wonderful person. She had one child (my cousin) and her husband died when he was 45. She believes that things should be natural, you shouldn't need to take median or pain medication. So whenever I was sick and she was in from Colorado, she would make me tea, or give me some kind of scented candle, or massage my head to make me feel better. It was pretty cool how she just knew some things like that(she also knew how to yodel). Two years ago when there was an ecolie brake out in spinach she went to the doctors to get checked, that was when we found out she had stage 8 ovarian cancer. Its been a hard 2 years for her, with 6 near death experiences. I only go to see her maybe once a year or every two years, I didn't feel like we had a very strong connection, until i thought about not having her there for me. Tonight my mom came to my dads house to tell me that she past away this morning, I never knew what it felt like to loose a relative.